Ok I figured out of curteousy I would warn everyone once that Im religious, but now that its up Im not ashamed, and hope someone reads it to talk with me about it. Not argue, but to discuss. Also everything I say in one of these is 100% true, no skimping, no made up fantasies... pure cold reality.


First thing is first... Im extremely blessed... in more ways than I can possibly begin to start uttering, however one of the large ways I have been blessed is that at this point in my life I have Emily by my side... not physically yet... still twelve more days for that, but just she calls me hers and I call her mine. She has kept me sane through some of the more difficult times of my life, and for that I can never express enough thanks, along with she kept me close to God, refusing to allow my psuedointellectualism to try to run me away. Thank you my love, my dearest, my partner, my angel.


Ok so three years now is when I decided this ultimately, a brief history of my life would include being raised in the Church of God every other weekend, and the Lutheran church on the other ones.... so it was a slightly confusing doctrine mix he he, by the time I was 12 I became obsessed with a girl, who kinda just played with my head for about a little under six years... the worst part being that i let her, also about 15 I decided God was a sham... id seen to much horror, experienced to much hate, heard so much slander from people IN the church about other churches, tasted too much blood, and felt too much just plain wrong to believe a god could possibly exist, let alone a "caring and loving one." Well about the time I decided this, my mom took my siblings and I up to her latest boyfriends house... and he took us hiking. Never mind the asshole decided NOT to give us backpacks, walkie talkies, water, food, or any supplies of any kind *grrs* So we start hiking, and everything is fine and dandy before I, knowing everything about everything being a whole 15, took off ahead of the group to hike ahead, eventually the boyfriend caught up and told me that they were headed back but I could keep going if i felt like it. I came to a place called "Devil's Bathtub" looked at it decided it was just a stupid natural pool and continued onward, after following the stream of water that fed the bathtub, I found a trail again that led up to a small clearing where several people on four wheelers were gathered. Thankful for the company I halted there while I waited to get dry, they talked about their plans for the day, asked me some small talk and eventually I went along my way once they decided to head out and finished with a prayer. I walked along for several hours enjoying the scenery and listening to the peace, I came to another clearing and starting marching in the midmorning and now seeing the sun dip below the tree line I thought it would be a good idea to turn around and go back seeing as I was incredibly thirsty along with pretty hungry, and had been walking ALL day and was tired... well I turned to behold the fact that the path branched off into roughly seven different paths... I was incredibly discouraged but decided to take one of them, after wandering around for another hour or so... I ended up back where I had came from. I picked another and walked along before coming to another multiple fork... I was starting to hallucinate, if I remember correctly I saw small sprite like creatures, and some fun things like that, it was also really starting to get dark... and thats not something you want to do.. be lost in the woods at dark that is... well I keep wandering and keep getting even more lost... until a small voice in my head (yes I hear voices, no I'm not schizo) told me that I was being prideful and that someone was trying to tell me something. Well I continued on stubbornly until my legs could carry me no further, it was becoming difficult to see and I just wanted to die, the voice said the same thing and I finally fell on my knees and begged. Begged God to forgive me for my insolence, begged God to intervene and save me, begged him to just let me back to him... for some reason people always seem to be more religious when they think they are going to die... well almost exactly as I finished my prayer, my solitude and silence was broken by a distant roar, that eventually turned into an growling whine which I soon recognized as a four wheeler motor.
Not joking at all, turns out one of them saw my mom, and brought me up... my mom then asked if they had seen me since, since I had not returned back to the car, so they came to find me... a little search and rescue. Well they thanked me for getting lost, seeing as they had a valid reason to drive on some of the roughest terrain they had ever seen ( It was private property but rescuing someone made it all right ) They had some extra water, and jerky for me, and as you see I didn't in fact die. But I felt God's presence, I felt his comfort, and those wonderful youth group members saved my ass and for that I thank them immensely. But thats when I really really did decide to dedicate my heart to my lord God.

1. Are you going out with anyone?
Yessirrie Bob

2. How long have you been going out with that person?
Erm lets see here... Jan.... its April... Three months?

3. How did you two end up together?
Erm... band camp, but I didnt notice her advancements until after I got dumped and she was the only one who was able to comfort me.

4. Have you ever gone out with anyone else in your life before that person?
Yea but...let just not go there

5. And the one you've had the longest relationship with?
Her ^^... I think Im beating it by a week or two.

6. What color best describes your lover?
pale blue- soft on the eyes, comforting, and just plain good

7. Any interesting memories?
I almost got stuck in a cement pipe trying to show off a bit

8. Do you feel like cheating at all?
Never. I do have some 'unsavory' thoughts about her sometimes but only her. Shes all I need to keep me near God and her and thats all I want.

9. Anything you want to say to your current lover?
Your gorgeous, your amazing, your caring, your so special to me, and I can't thank you enough for nudging me back towards our Creator.




1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

Characters:
1.Rolleth
2.Nuada
3.Ranea
4.Becky
5.Razeen

What's your full name?
Rolleth Runestead
Nuada Locklear
Ranea Fel
Becky Neilson
Razeen Alimon

How old are you?
Rolleth: 32
Nuada: I lost count
Ranea: 19
Becky: 17 (Hey! My female OC are teens... wow that seems so freakin typical)
Razeen: 26

Are you a virgin?
Rolleth: Yes
Nuada: Yes
Ranea: No
Becky: Yes
Razeen: Yes

Who's your mate/spouse?
Rolleth: She was Amilia
Nuada: None (whispers: Why are there all these people Rolleth?!)
Ranea: Okay so this is a really long story but the short of the long of it is that it turns out Micheal didnt really exist... so I technically never mated/married him right?
Becky: uh.... what? Sorry was looking at that really large shiny guy. *stares at Rolleth*
Razeen: I have not graced any person with such an honor

Do you have any kids?
Rolleth: No (whispers: I dont know friend. *chuckles* but they are slightly amusing... although Razeen worries me with that decaying aura, however seeing as my presence has not caused him agony nor seeming inconvenience I deduce he indeed not fully evil.)
Nuada: No
Ranea: Okay... were getting back into the non reality bit... but no... but I want them agai- I mean I just want them ....Im confused...
Becky: IM ONLY 17!!
Razeen: No... unless you count my legions.

What's your favorite food?
Rolleth: Cakes... sweet cakes preferably
Nuada: I dont eat much.
Ranea: Guava and haunch of some beast
Becky: Pizza?
Razeen: I only eat the bitter herbs that focus my mind.

What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Rolleth: \
Nuada: \
Ranea: / Whats Ice cream?
Razeen: /

Becky: *giggles at the others* Strawberry

Have you killed anyone?
Rolleth: Yes... Lord please forgive me.
Nuada: Yes
Ranea: Yes
Becky: No
Razeen: If Im not, the dead are.

Do you hate anyone?
Rolleth: Evil
Nuada: Nerix
Ranea: (Rolleth.. pst... Rolleth... thats not a person.) Oh erm... uhh Whoever pisses me off I guess *shrugs*
Becky: Jason.. cause that brat ran off again.
Razeen: Humankind count as an anyone?


Have any secrets?
Rolleth: Many, but the time alloted does not allow me to share my testimony nor my secrets
Nuada: Yes
Ranea: Yes I have my secrets but no reason to dredge them from my mind.
Becky: not really... I kinda blabber... Like did you know Jason still wets the bed and he *trails off blabbering*
Razeen: The secrets of the Necromantic arts

Do you love anyone?
Rolleth: Everyone
Nuada: Gwen
Ranea: No
Becky: Jason... despite how annoying that kid is... hes like family.
Razeen: Hate is not love, now LEAVE ME ALONE you disgusting pile of slowly rotting flesh.

What do you do to relax?
Rolleth: Meditate
Nuada: ....
Ranea: Train
Becky: Talk... alot... in fact sometimes I just randomly rant because I can, and maybe eventually Ill come up with something entertaining to say.
Razeen: *death glare*

Any clue to your alignment? (Good vs Bad?)
Rolleth: Good
Nuada: Pure
Ranea: Mixture, depends on what I have to do.
Becky: Oh I like to think Im good, I dont really do bad things, alot anyways, usually Im good so Im good.
Razeen: I dont have to answer this

Favorite color?
Rolleth: Red
Nuada: Green, almost an olive green *sighs*
Ranea: Purple
Becky: Black
Razeen: Death

Describe yourself in one word.
Rolleth: Pious
Nuada: Protective
Ranea: Wary
Becky: Kickass ^^
Razeen: Nightmare *evil cackle*



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I would hate all of them to be in the same room :S, Rolleth and Razeen would be scary. Becky and Razeen would end up Becky being dead, and Nuada just hates the fact I forced to talk at all. Poor Ranea just had to deal with the annoyance before returning to the mountains.
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FOUR FREAKIN DAYS!

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I love you all *hugs* Next entry is a testimony along with some prayer requests. Dont worry Ill put a warning up for now.

First thing is first. God rocks ^.^


Second thing is second. 12 DAYS!!!! FREAKING WOOT! I get to see my gorgeous Zodiac, my precious one, in a mere 12 days... I ish escited *grins insanely and starts laughing manically while running in hexagons*

Hidden thing is Ninja. 31 Days till I leave for Crete... ah crap. I need to get community service done before then :S Ill figure something out.


Third thing is nintyst. I beat Scott at Naruto Ultimate Ninja 3 once out of 14 matches (He owns the game, first time I picked it up and I never play Naruto) However the giggly part of the whole thing is that he was playing the Yellow Flash and I was Karkuhomaru or something like that (the lil annoying boy) and I pwned him, finishing him off with Sexy Jutsu for the ultimate insult *grins*

Fourth thing is eighth.. or it would have been if the eight didn't fall over 0_0;;. These following lyrics are songs Ive heard tonight that I believe apply to me in several different ways, the first one my dear Zodiac made fit to us, and thus it became my favorite song for connotations and for song quality. The second fits my personality and needs often.


Panic! At The Disco - Northern Downpour lyrics
If all our life is but a dream
Fantastic posing greed
Then we should feed our jewelery to the sea
For diamonds do appear to be
Just like broken glass to me

And then she said she can't believe
Genius only comes along
In storms of fabled foreign tongues
Tripping eyes, and flooded lungs
Northern downpour sends its love

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down

Sugarcane in the easy mornin'
Weather vanes my one and lonely

The ink is running toward the page
It's chasin' off the days
Look back at boat feet
And that winding knee
I missed your skin when you were east
You clicked your heels and wished for me

Through playful lips made of yarn
That fragile Capricorn
Unraveled words like moths upon old scarves
I know the world's a broken bone
But melt your headaches, call it home

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down

Sugarcane in the easy mornin'
Weather vanes my one and lonely


Sugarcane (hey moon) in
(Hey moon) the easy mornin'
Weather vanes (hey moon) my
(Hey moon) one and lonely

Sugarcane (hey moon) in (hey moon)
The easy (hey moon) mornin'
Weather vanes (hey moon) my (hey moon)
One (hey moon) and lonely

Sugarcane (hey moon) in (hey moon)
The easy (hey moon) mornin'
Weather vanes (hey moon) my (hey moon)
One (hey moon) and lonely

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down
You are at the top of my lungs
Drawn to the ones who never yawn







A Perfect Circle - Thomas


Humble and helpless
Learning to pray
Praying for visions
to Show me the way
Show me the way to forgive you
Allow me to let it go
Allow me to be forgiven
Show me the way to let go
Show me the way to forgive you
Allow me to let it go
Allow me to be forgiven
Show me the way to let go

Illuminate me,
Illuminate me,
Illuminate me,
I'm just praying for you to show me
Where I'm to begin

Hoping to
Hoping to reconnect to you..

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie.

Opening Credits: Xmas De Chocobo (I don't want to go into how typical this is *sigh*)

First Day At School: Emotionless - Good Charlotte (Yet again with the Irony)

Falling In Love: Wake Me Up - Evanesence (O_O okay Im scared now.)

Fight Song: Dance Hall Drug - Boys Like Girls (hehehehe)

Breaking Up: Numb - Avoidance Of Doubt (Yea this would be a good song for such)

Prom: I Believe You(Instumental) - Celldweller (Good Rock/Techno)

Life: Colors - Crossfade

Mental Breakdown: Safe With You - Skillet (Yet again... On the nose)

Driving Far Away: Your Retro Career Melted - The Faint

Flashback: Sick Cycle Carousel - Lifehouse

Wedding: Bonnie Taylor Shakedown 2K1 - Hellogoodbye

Birth of Child: Ransom - Escape The Fate (Huh?!)

Final Battle: Breathe - Breaking Benjamin (I would love this to be a final battle song )

Death Scene: Hell & Consequence - Stone Sour (HOLY... Im weirded out really bad lol)

Funeral Song: Crawl - Alkaline Trio (At least its a bad I like :3)

End Credit: Goes Without Saying - Scary Kids Scaring Kids

Random Extra Song: Cornelius - Newsboys

Overall, good tunes for my life :3.



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1. Full Name : Thomas Allen Neeley

2. Male/Female : Male

3.Were you named after anyone? : Allen is a family name.

4.Does your name mean anything? : Seeker of Truth, "Little Rock, or Handsome", and Son of a poet.

5.Nick names? : Tom, Tommi, Thom, Chomas, Tim, Sparrow

6.What do you think you look like?: A tall skinny freak?

7.Date of Birth : September 7th

8.Place of Birth and Current Location : Seward and Gordon

9.Nationality : European Mutt

10.Astrological Sign : Virgo

11.chinese astrological sign : Earth Snake

12.Religion : Christian

13.What's your favorite smell? : Right before it rains when your in the country, without any town to fudge it up, as stupid as it sounds Emily, she just is so XP.

14.Political Position : I think I fit into Republican but Im not sure

15.What do you prefer to drink in the morning : Milk :3

16.Hair and Eye Color : Hair: Dark brown, with every other natural color under the sun including white and grey. Eyes: Grey - Blue

17.Do you look like anyone famous : Adam Larazza kinda

18.What do you think you look like? : Flojourb from the planet Xkdj3 (not easily pronounced)

19.Any Unusual Talents? : I can put myself in situations mentally that Ive never come close to in real life in order to better counsol people. I also seem to have something to attract females to be friends with me.

20.Righty/Lefty or Ambidextrous? : Right.

21.Gay, Straight, Bi or Other? : Straight, and one at a time

22.What do you do for a living? : Student... and I work part-time.

23.What do you do for fun? : Reading, Writing, Drawing, Video games, Talk to people, whatever I feel like, being with my precious one.

24.What are your favorite materials to work with?: Whatever I can get to produce whats stuck in my mind.

25.What materials would you like to work with? : A graphic tablet. :3

26.Have you met your Grandparents? : Yuppers, my Grandma Louis kicks ass, my Grandma Gladys kicks arse

27.Boyfriend/Girlfriend ? : Girlfriend Emily-kun

28.Crush? : Not a crush... WAYY past crush.

29.What celebrity would you date if you could : Why the hell would you date a female celebrity, either they are spoiled, psychotic, or just plain bitchy.

30.Current Worries : Life

31.Favorite online guy or girl : All of my friends on DA.

32.Favorite place to be : With Em, or anywhere with a clear uninterrupted view of the sunset.

33.Least favorite place to be : HERE!

34.Do you burn or tan? : Lightly Tan... not quite burn, not quite tan, I'm just under well done Surprisingly tasty with a hint of a crunch.

35.Ever break a bone? : Never broke anything

36.What is your favorite cereal? : Honey bunches of Oats

37.Person you cry with : Emily, Nathaniel, Brianna

Do you have...

38.Any Sisters? : Two, Aerin and Megan. Aerin is ... and Megan is... ok yea Im not going there

39.Any Brothers? : Yuppers. James, hes Megan's twin, he is a goober, and fairly intelligent. I hope that this hellhole doesnt affect him too much and I wish the best for the goober.

40.Any Pets? : BABY *hugs the cute kitty*

41.An Illness? : I feel very ill today

42.A Pager: No.

43.A Personal Phone: No house phone... dont ask

44.A Cell Phone : Nopes.

45.A visible birthmark? : Moles

46.A pool or hot tub : No. I wish though. I love to swim.

47.A Car : BIKE DAMMIT

Describe your...

48.Personality : FIRST AND FOREMOST: I PROCRSTINATE! Secondly, Im very dependent while mostly maintaining independent thoughts. I need someone in my life to help me along, I need my lord God. I have a deep rooted need to help people, and I have a hunger for things I dont know.

49.Driving : Paranoid

50.Clothing Style : Take what I have on the floor put it on, if its a shirt Im trying to wear as pants... well i guess I just made a new style.

51.Room : Living room

52.What's Missing : Emily in my arms, me at college, me out of thsi hellhole, true motivation, knowledge, my laptop (okay so I havent bought it yet... but it will be mine, oh yes, it will be mine)

53.School : I hate High School... nuff said

54.Bed : Mom's: The couch . Dad's: comfiest bed evah with a star wars and Japanese character comforters.

55.Relationship with your parents : Close with my Dad, hes very condescending but I can talk with him about most things. My mother is psychotic and upsets me often.

Do you....

56.Believe in yourself? : No

57.Believe in love at first sight? : No. I believe in strong attraction or lust at first sight which can develop later into real love.

58.Consider yourself a good listener? : I listen well given the circumstances are important for someone else. Makes me a good counselor but makes it so Im shitty at listening to people tell me what I should do, or lectures.

59.Have a future dream that you would like to share? : Wife, with kids, lots of kids. Ill also teach Math or Eng/Lang arts. (Also maybe have some art skills, and writing ability)

60.Get along with your parents? : Just answered this

61.Save your e-mail messages? : Most

62.Pray? : Yes.

63.Believe in Reincarnation? : No.

64.Brush your teeth twice a day? : Once a day

65.Like to talk on the phone? : Its as close as I get with alot of my friends, so I love talking ON the phone is just a bonus hehe.

66.Like to Eat? : RAWR GIVE ME FOOD!

67.Like to Exercise? : I love running, and biking, and I wish I could lift weights so I had some muscle to me.

68.Like to Watch Sports : Occasionally football... but not really.

69.Sing in the Car? : I sing anywhere and everywhere... I suck at it mostly unless its concert choir (classical stuff mostly) in which I can hit some rather rich low notes and some concrete high ones.

70.What is a Dream you have all the time? : Used to be floating in the nothingness of space... really weird I used to only have one dream that was reoccurring. I was just drifting through space, and Id always start where I left off... just floating not quite dead through the infinite vacuum... and sometimes get pulled in by gravity of something and then next dream Id be just out of the reach of it. Very real very scary, very empty...

71.Do you Dream in Color : Yes, and in sensory details, when Im having a real dream it would always be almost more real than real life can be... sometimes (thinks of dreams of being with Em, and journeys to other places) thats a wonderful thing. Other times (thinks of nothingness. Thinks of dream that Em left him) not so good.

72.Do you have Nightmares? : The space dream to me was a nightmare, and Em leaving me was a really bad one... along with everyone but me dying.

73.Sleep with a stuff animal? : Sometimes. Brown Bunny and Mr. Beary

What is...

74.Right next to you? : Baby the kat, random computer crap, alarm clock, sketchbook, acceptance letter, random Doane information. Physics book.

75.On your favorite Coffee Cup : I hate coffee

76.On your Mouse Pad: Just grey, but it has a gel pad for my wrist n.n

77.Your favorite flavor of Gum : That double strawberry trident stuff

78.Your favorite brand of Deoderant : Essence Axe

79.Your Dream Honeymoon Spot : somewhere with either a castle (either European or Japanese) or a forest. preferably both

80.Your Dream Husband/Wife : Someone who merely accepts my quirks, helps me with the things I need help with (maintaining my purity from porn, controlling my attitude) Cares as much about me as I do her, wants tons of kids or at least could deal with it, has similar intrests s I do, and can keep showing me new things

81.Hiding in your Closet : I dont have one.

82.Hiding under your Bed : Cereal bowl

83.The name of one of your closest friends : Emily, Nathaniel, Tamie, Makayla, Brianna, Falon and Makayla.

84.Your Bad time of day : Mornings when I wasnt ready... or about an hour and a half before works over.

85.Your Worst Fears : Not being good enough

86. The Weather Like? : Well, it's March, its kinda rainy but its Nebraska so it randomly has to be snowy as well

87. Your favorite Time of Year? : Winter and Spring, the cold frigid beauty and the beginning of life

88.Your favorite Holiday : Halloween. :3

89.Your Material Weakness : Emily, Manga, Books, Pizza

90.The Weirdest Food or Drink that you like :

91.At the top of your To-Do List : Grow Up

92.The Hardest Thing about Growing Up :

93.Your Pet Peeve : Hypocrites, and liars.

94.Your Scariest Moment: When I thought I was going to drown because the lifeguard thought it was funny... or when I realized I was lost and at least two miles in one unknown direction from a road, and tens of miles any other way.

95.Your Attitude About Love : It truly is impossible to describe fully, however a good part of it is the desire for the happiness of another over your own, the willingness of self sacrifice for the true betterment of another. Selflessness is love.

96.The Funniest Thing or Most Desperate Thing you've ever done to get the attention of the opposite sex : Tried to dance

97.The Worst Feeling in the World : Failure... not material failure, but like your not good enough for people and that you failed someone.

98.The Best Feeling in the World : Being held and having aishiteru whispered into your ear. Helping someone avoid suicide, or just helping someone out of a bad time and knowing that your involvement made the difference

99.Who sent this to you? : :zodiac1805:

100.Who are you going to tag? : I have a list...

Again, Ive been inflamed, I have had to see something DISGUSTING, REVOLTING, and just plain HORRENDOUS... want to know what it is? Its a secret









Humans. Oh mankind is just a vomitous mass, and I figured that Id use my limited audience to express some of my opinions... I realize I'm considered a "fundie" by some people, and I don't give a shit to be honest. I AM Christian, I hold no shame in this, I ALSO DO NOT FUCKING HAVE TO HATE THOSE WHO ARE NOT! This next story is highly offensive yet seem to be what , especially "Christians"and "regular people" , think of Aethists and Agnostics (Personally if you are Agnostic than your just a fucktard... I mean acknowledging God, yet refusing him anyways... *shakes head*) Please viewer descression advised. I will not tag who I got this from merely to prevent her from being flamed JiC. (If you are easily offended, or even able to be offended partially easily... please skip the story in parenthesis)




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Truly a person every atheist should strive to emulate:

As told by /b/

"Today was a great day in my Atheist life. It started off as it usually does, with me waking up and denying The Lord at the top of my lungs, screaming out "I TOTALLY DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD ACTUALLY" as loudly as I could, because of course, being Atheist means my life completely and utterly revolves around denying The Lord as much as is humanly possible. I got out of bed and dressed in my typical Atheist garb - a sinister black cloak, plastic devil horns, and a hunting knife strapped to my leg, just in case I ran into any Christians and needed to gut them on the spot. Usually you can wait for a few buddies to help you crucify them, but if you're caught on the hop, you don't want that Jesus-loving freak to get away. We've all been there.

I only fancied something light for breakfast, so I had my underaged gay hermaphrodite lover, Satanclaw to russle me up some pages of the bible in goat milk. As I crammed the word of God into my mouth, I laughed heartily at just how wicked I was for this sinful morning nutrition. Since I'm Atheist, anything I do that's even slightly wrong is fantastic and hilarious to me. Erotic as well, because I am an incredibly twisted pervert who revels in every deviancy under the Sun. Whilst on the subject of the Sun, I should remind you that Charles Darwin invented that. All Atheists know that Charles Darwin invented Planet Earth because he was bored and wanted a lark. As I ate my breakfast, I watched a little television, or to put it another way, copious amounts of illegal gay pornography. To all Atheists, gay porn is the most wholesome thing on the planet you can watch, and there's not one of us alive who doesn't love to masturbate over it. With my breakfast done, I kissed Satanclaw on his arsehole, wiped The AIDS from my mouth, and went out to run my errands.

Every weekday morning is spent the same. I'll hang out by the local preschool, abducting, buggering and murdering as many infants as I can fit into my burlap bag. Luckily, the principal of the school is an Atheist too, so not only does he approve of my pedofun, he often helps and sometimes joins in the rapetastic chicanery. I'm a big ol' Atheist, which means I have no concept of right or wrong and morality simply doesn't exist in my decadent heathen world. I'm sure I could see something wrong in kiddy rape but... I don't believe in God so.... s'cool. After all, everybody knows that you can't be truly moral unless you're acting out of fear of going to Hell. There's absolutely no other way of doing the right thing without being scared of an all-seeing God. Since I don't believe in God, I can happily revert to the carnal desires for children that we all have. It's just the Atheist way.

With today's victims buried in their shallow graves by the lake, I decided to head out and get the groceries for the week. On the way to the store, however, I saw a Christian. We Atheists despise every single Christian who ever lived because they're simply that big and important, and thus I had to slit his throat right there in the street. Thank God Who Doesn't Exist Btw that I brought my knife, huh? I hacked away at his windpipe and battered him in the head as he bled and gurgled and quivered to death. I was crying and screeching the whole time, because every time I see one of those disgusting Christians, my blood boils and I go insane with hateful rage. They seriously ruin my life and I believe that utterly. Naturally, I flipped his still warm corpse over and made the gayest of love to his dead, puckered spicehole while drinking the blood. Because y'know... I don't believe in God. The only regret I had in killing him was the fact he wouldn't be able to enjoy all the lovely HIV I'd just shot into his @$$hole. Since my mother's an Atheist, I was born with AIDS, and I simply love spreading it around. It makes me smile every time I poo, knowing that there's a little bundle of queergerms in every brown bum boulder.

After that little detour, I finally made it to the store - or as some might call it - the abortion clinic. Call me old fashioned, but there's just something downright delicious about a freshly-vaccuumed fetus. Sometimes I keep a few just to roll around in. I love smearing their little blood-slicked bodies over my naked Atheist flesh, licking their big, soulless black eyes and kissing them erotically as I spray my AIDS infested spunk all over my Pentragram adorned bedroom floor. The abortion doctors are always very helpful in making sure I get the choicest little slices of herecy, although they sometimes can't help getting distracted by the sounds of screams and misery that echo through their blood drenched corridors. Lovely blokes, abortion doctors, but they do get off on human suffering to the point where they just don't concentrate on anything else. Can't say I blame them, not believing in Jesus or anything does make one about a billion times more sadistic. I really do recommend a tour of your local abortion clinic whenever you have spare time. They're not shy in showing you the torture chambers, dungeons, genetic experiment laboratories, Necromancy suites and child skull piles that are the industry standard.

As I left with my freshly ground fetal gonads, I couldn't help attacking the pregnant teenager on her way to the clinic. I figured abortionists shouldn't have all the fun and, since I'm an Atheist, I'm genetically disposed to wanting to eliminate every fetus I'm near. I spent a merry few hours idly kicking her in the vagina and stamping on her stomach while the mother of my victim looked on and applauded, revelling in our Godless ways. As I was laughing and shouting at her, some flecks of spit landed in her tear-stricken eyes and she instantly became infected with my AIDS, at which point she exploded with AIDS and covered everything in AIDS blood. Then I raped the mother. Just 'cos.

When I got home, I felt really great, which is rare for me since I usually feel completely empty about the idea of Heaven not existing and as such, totally don't have any respect for my life. I certainly don't use that lack of belief in eternal life to make the most of what I have, oh no. Far more logically, I just have a complete lack of faith in myself and believe nothing is worth anything. But I did feel good today, and it might have been because I had a $hitload of drugs back home waiting for me. Drugs are so awesome, I'll just eat that $hit right down while voting for Democrats. After ramming several ecstasy tablets up my ringpiece, I went outside to burn a few crosses, then summoned a Demon and fu-ked it while trying to communicate with aliens, eating the brains of Christians, giving thousands of dollars to terrorists and praying at my shrine to Doctor Dawkins.

All in all, what a great Atheist day I had."

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THAT! RIGHT THERE! Is what Im talking about, Ive heard similar comments, not quite as graphic, but people honestly believe that Aethiests whole life revolves around hating those that believe in God Almighty... I realize I am being hypocritical in a sense, that I am yelling at people for their blind ignorant HATE while preaching "Love your neighbor as yourself" and other such fun verses to say. You fakes sicken me. If you claim the word of Jesus Christ, THEN LIVE BY IT. Accepting Jesus Christ, God, Holy Ghost, Yaweh, whatever you want to name God, does NOT mean you have some sort of miracuous personality change. The reason why people change is because they want to follow the word of the Bible better, they want to be closer to how Jesus lived, and most of all, if you love something, and say you believe it than you damn well better accept and follow it. When Jesus walked upon this Earth, how did he treat those that were not "holy"? Did he spit upon their names? Did he shun them? WAS HE HATEFUL? DID HE HURT THEM, KILL THEM, MAKE THEIR LIVES AS CLOSE TO HELL AS POSSIBLE??! He LOVED them, he rarely forced his word upon anyone, he told everyone who listened, and sure its documented quite well in the bible, oddly enough almost every one he talked to became a follower (they were not called Christians yet) but I can almost guarantee you... there were plenty of people that thought he was full of shit, and to that I have one comment. Even if Christianity is a bunch of shit, and there truly is no God, we still NEED to learn how the hell to live by that one simple rule. "Love your neighbor as yourself." Which can be taken to mean, dont put on a mask and fake for people, or how I read it, Love others as you love yourself, put there wellbeing before you put your maggot infested brain. YES you may not agree with someone elses lifestyle weather it be the fact that they are homosexual, different religion, race, sex, who gives a shit, are they not human? ARE THEY NOT?! If not why? They have the same shape as you, are hurt as easily as you are, have the ability to reason as you do, although I bet they can reason better.

Id also like to take this opportunity to attempt to make something else clear. I am a furry, not a "furfag" just a mere furry, I enjoy stories with anthromorphic characters because they have characters that are far more forgiving and accepting than what the mites on this Earth are capable of. I also like the look of certain animals with human characteristics. I have no intrest in seeing these ani-people getting it on, or dressing up as an animal and fucking someone. I merely like how they look and are represented.

I dont claim to be perfect, I get annoyed, disgusted, as easily as the next person, I have manic depression, I have the most wonderful woman I could ever ask for, and I have my God.


Please my friends, the next time you see someone different than you, treat them as you would your closest friend, they are part of you, born of the same stuff you are just in different order.


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Prayer Requests:

If you dont believe as I do, please just ignore this, it is of no consequence to you.


Hate - As this post demonstrates even my "righteous anger" is laced with hate, I pray that we learn to control this consuming emotion and purge it from our range... though one cannot have love without hate, I hope we learn to never express hate.

My College and Military bound friends - Just for their wisdom, and safety.

Em's mum (and other single mothers) - For the difficulty of having to work multiple jobs, for having to single handily raising children in a very unforgiving world.

Zodiac1805 and I - That we stay in God's world and don't loose focus, that we learn more about one another as our commitment deepens, and our relationship strengthens. That I manage to keep myself under control in 29 days, and do not do anything that I will regret later.